majiea

Tip of the day
Don't fall too hard. You might not get back up.



Just be glad you're not feeling what I'm feeling. This club is not the one to join. Though, the question I do want to ask is.....how is it affecting others?




majiea

Tip of the day
Don't trip on your way out of my life.



I don't really know where that tip came from but it doesn't really matter anyway.


It's been a while Livejournal. It has.


I'm getting a tattoo April 16th. It's official now, and if you care to know what it is ask me after the day I get it and I'll show you. It's easier to show than to explain. Not that it's going to be a complicated tattoo, I'm just tired of explaining it.

My birthday is in 2 days, kind of exciting but not really. This year hasn't been the greatest. I hope it gets better. I had a dream that I was going to be 18 and woke up severely disappointed in the fact that that will come in another year.

I'm really not liking some things right now. I don't think I'm doing well and again feel like I'm screwing myself over. I mean I haven't done anything severely wrong, I just, well I don't really know. Nevermind that.

This school year will soon be over and I'm glad for that. Then one more year and maybe I can relax a little. But in all honesty that's probably a total lie.

My dad's taking me to see John Mellencamp tomorrow night for my birthday. That, I am excited about. I love hanging out with my dad even though sometimes I don't admit it. The only bad part might be the fact that his "lady friend", for lack of a better title, will be attending as well.

I need to do another painting and start working harder on my art. Though it is the only thing that I'm working my hardest on, I could dedicate more to it. However I did play the piano yesterday but not long enough because I was in a bad mood and kept messing up.

Well I think this is a long enough post. Geezus.



majiea

Sometimes I just don't like being me.

Tip of the Day
If you paint the town red you won't be arrested for murder.



It was great getting out of the house. Being "cooped up" for almost 3 days kind of sucks.

My hair needs to grow faster.............liking a speeding bullet!!

I'm getting so excited about getting a tattoo, it's so wicked awesome! I've wanted one for so long. About a month or so and I'll totally have a tattoo. Sweet!

Downloadin' some music!

I'm going to the ZOO tomorrow!!



Majiea

Tip of the Day
When you go down under, make sure you're wearing your Granny Sea Goggles. And an oxygen tank wouldn't be such a bad idea either.



Drugs and Caffeine do a body good.


Friday's art competition was awesome. Not like totally, but it was a good day. I placed second on the Wire Sculpting Challenge they had while they judged the exhibit. We had to scuplt a deer's head out of 14g wire. It was awesome.
Had a great friday night as well. I played so many parts and did so many transitions you'd think I was crazy! Yea, it would make more sense if you were there. ha!

Spent the weekend with my dad. It was pretty cool. We went and saw the Scholastics Exhibit. Pretty cool, not as good as the last 2 years but still good.
And Aley Shoffner.....your bear dress was totally amazing!

Just got back from the Village Inn with Arcadia. We had barrels of laughs. "Remember, you can't spell mansLAUGHTER without LAUGHTER!" haha

I hope tomorrow goes well.


"Maybe that's all a family really is; a group of people who miss the same imaginary place." -garden state
so true, so true



majiea

Tip of the Day
Don't feel guilty about the fact that you have secrets. Everyone has secrets.




I don't have to go to school tomorrow because there is an art competition that I get to go to. Sweet! Even though it's a school trip, it doesn't matter because I'm not going to be in school. And I have more freedom. Awesome.

That's about it. This week hasn't really looked up that much, but it happens. Always. I barely have any money, none that I can spend anyway. I have some pennies though. That will get me nowhere.

I might change my tattoo idea because I don't really want one on my back for a while. I want to wait to get the seahorse on my back for a little bit. So I'm trying to conjure ideas of a smaller tattoo that can go on my arm or something.



majiea

Tip of the day
Don't let your expectations get too high.




Everything fucking sucks and I don't want any sympathy, I just need to vent right now. Stupid fucking everything and all that is me right now. God damn it! I want to go beat something or someone up. That would be good. Yes.

I'm just really pissed off right now because things are not looking up. I might get over one thing but something else decides to be stupid after that. It's just a big stupid fucking mess. It's still the same days collecting together to make my life miserable. Can't I just sit in a corner and have everyone leave me alone and not expect anything from me? No, because I put myself out there and offer to do things and try to make something of myself. It doesn't work though, I put too much on my shoulders and then end up failing. Yeah, that's how it always works. I just want to hide, but I can't. I should.




majiea

Tip of the day
Observe the people and the world around you. It definitely gives you a different perspective.



Went to the movies with my sister, her husband, and Arcadia. We saw "Hide and Seek". It was pretty creepy but not bad. I wasn't disappointed but there's nothing really to rave about. Except that Dakota Fanning, who plays the little girl, is so cute but yet so evil looking in the movie. Good times. Then Arcadia and I went to see Guild and hung out there for a little bit. Good times as well.

I'm drinking Root Beer and getting sleepy. Yes.

I'm so glad it's the weekend. I'm just trying not to think of the fact that Monday will still come again. I'm just hoping that tomorrow will be totally awesome hanging out with Arcadia, April and Allie. Good times I tell you, no Great times!




majiea

Tip of the day
When you're through wearing a jacket, make it into a purse.



I'm might get a job soon, but no guarantees. That would be awesome if I did.

Didn't miss much in psychology so I'm good on those terms.

I finally finished my signature project thing in drawing and painting today. It's a fish looking sad with seaweed around him. It probably could use a little more work but it was way late so I just turned it in. Now we have to work on doing a profile of ourselves. I hope that it's interesting.

I need to clean my room. I have this area that is a total mess. And I need to work on some art as well. I might do that tonight if I'm not too tired. It probably won't get done though because I'm tired already. meh.



majiea

Tip of the Day
Jump in and 2-step!



Yeah, had an alright night. Not too bad. Went to the Perk with Arcadia and then we went to the show. Was an alright show, we had to leave during the Esoteric set though.


I missed psychology yesterday and I have it tomorrow and I don't know what we did. I hope I can make it up easily. meh.

I cut my hair short! Yay!




majiea

Tip of the day
Try not to drown yourself in too deep with thought.



Not having a good day. Not having a good month. Everything seems to be a consistent downfall. Great way to start a new year huh? Maybe February will be a better month even though it's really just the same days spreading into a new "month" all rounded up together in a series of shitty times.

Yeah, I feel like shit.

I don't know if I've said this yet....but now I'm not sure if we're moving anymore. We might not be. When my mom told me we were, after I thought about enough I realized it might be sort of an escape for me. I got my hopes up, and now I have no idea.



majiea

Tip of the day
Drive around through neighborhoods you don't know. Enjoy the mystery of reality.



I'm at my dad's house right now. I vented out to him yesterday, it was pretty cool. He just laughed at me because that's how he is. I expected that from him, so it's cool.

Hiding my heart with a band-aid......literally. haha


I should be home soon.




majiea

Tip of the Day
Jump off a bridge and do not survive.



I hate right now. Right now sucks. Maybe hanging out with my dad today will make me forget for a while. I hope.

I just took a shower so I'm going to go fix my hair now.




majiea

Tip of the Day
Don't drink too much.




Very interesting. I'm a little buzzed. Yeah, but I can still type pretty well. I'm at Sarah's apartment. Fiesta!

Even though I am intoxicated, the one thing I hate is that I can still think about the things I do normally. I drink to get away from it, but does it work? NO! It definitely doesn't.

Bring it!! That's what he said.

It definitely doesn't work. Fuck it.




majiea

Tip of the Day
If it makes sense, do something completely different.



My mom came up with that "Tip of the Day". She's awesome sometimes.

Anyway.....something's on my mind right now and it kind of sucks. It's nothing like what I have been complaining about lately, but if you wanted to catagorize it, you could put some parts of it into that. Yea, I'm pissed off at times, annoyed at other times, and irritated a lot. Right now I can't do anything, actually I just don't want to. But there will be a time when everything comes out, when I get mad enough, when I almost spontaneously combust.

And we'll probably be moving again but not anywhere far away. Probably somewhere here in Derby or Wichita. Moving again, what a blast it's gonns be.
And I need to find a job, I running out of money. Short on gas money, cigarette money, and paying for minutes on my phone, and short on money to get a tattoo. Not a good idea.

I running out of tolerance.



majiea

Living through it. Dealing with it. Forgetting about it.

Tip of the day
Keep up the good work.



I'm really tired, but I don't want to go to sleep. I've been up since like 4:30 in the am. Though I did take a 2 hour nap at 4:00pm.
I just got home from Emily Snow's birthday party, tons of fun. Yay! I love playing Cranium. It is the best game ever, and we played spoons!


Anyway, things are still kind of shitty, but not quite to a bad extent anymore. I've made my mind busy with other things so I don't have to think about the past right now. Yeah. It will come back though, I guarantee it.




majiea

Tip of the day
Telephone the people you love and say you will pay them with cookies if they give you an elephant.


I am pretty sure that I need to get my eyes checked for a stronger prescription. My eyes hurt so bad and this happened when I first went to the eye doctor and got glasses for the first time.

Besides that, things are going good in the outside world, but inside everything just kind of sucks and it's really stupid.


The other day I was eating dinner with my dad and his lady friend Sharon at her house. After dinner I was waiting for my sister to pick me up so we could go to the movies. My dad and Sharon were discussing whether I would say yes or no to a question she had asked him. When she actually asked me, I said no. The question was.....Should he marry her?
HAHA!! I laughed afterwords because it was funny and it was true. I kind of felt bad but not really because it's not cool to have step-parents. I still don't really like my step-dad and my mom and him have been together for 7 years. Eugh.




majiea

I should be asleep.

Tip of the day
Don't trip over the phone chord. It might be fatal.



So we have power now, but our internet connection was being dumb. So I called the number on the monthly statement thing and fixed it right up. Sweet!! Right now I should be getting into to bed because I have been so tired lately. I think I have just been really stressed out and I think I still am.

If i just think positively, then things will look up. The pessimism doesn't help anything. The very first day back at school, I wanted to shoot myself in the head. But then we had 3 snow days and I came back with a little more realization that I have to be there no matter what. It kind of helped and people aren't so mean, I just like to be closed minded sometimes. And I'll admit it. Sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't. First impressions make everything. Anyways.

I haven't been to one of my day 2's yet so I have been to my photo class, my drawing and painting class, or my psychology class. It'll be weird tomorrow because those are the classes I have.

I don't have a job anymore. I need to find a new one because I have things to save up for. A lot of things, and one of the first ones is a tattoo. I'll probably get it during spring break, so I hope I have enough money by then. My mom is going to sign for it but I'm paying for it myself. Part of the deal, sort of.

I still haven't done much art or played the piano. I'm disappointed in myself. I just go out and do things all the time because it's fun. Now I have school again so that takes up my days as well.





It's a different time, a different town, a different memory.




majiea